hello thur. i can't sleep bcs i miss her. now im going to tell u why i love her. why i choose her over millions to be my best friend.
3 april 2012 the date we close. close like siblings kan? (: on that times, only god knw how much im happy to have her near with me. through bad and good days with her, thick and thin of friendship we through tgether without any fights. we close until this thing make my whole life, our friendship change. like a lot. 10 october, i have to enter asrama, then i dm her that i have to go. she's crying and keep telling me to not go. but what i can do right? i promise her that i'll never forget her and she do that either. so my life at asrama wasnt good. im missing. i miss her so much. then when this school holidays, i said that i miss her. she only said 'k' which mean she seem like she dont like that. i keep telling myself that its ok, mybe she's tired. i try to understand.
1 june i ask her lepak at my house then she give excuses that she fasting. its ok. i understand for the second time. then i open my tab and i read her tweets with annisya, annisya ask her "where r u?" she said "kat starbucks. lepak dgn kawan" then srsly, tears suddenly drowning my face. how could she...
ive no mood for one day, i dont eat. i keep thinking what my faults. mybe my fault.
or she's lonely.if that the reason, its stupid. she should put some effort to see me like i put my effort just bcs wanted to see her. and now, i dont know how. i keep ignoring her. im sorry. i miss u, i really do. i just need some space and time to be alone.
i miss being bitch with u. shopping tgether. talk abt bad boys, talk abt our future tgether, jokes she made just wanted me to feel alright, being there with me always. when i argue with parents she was there back-up me. and when she has problem i being there for her, let she hug me when she need it, she have my shoulder to lean on, i miss going through everything with her. now im totally crying over and over.
happy 457 days of our friendship! hope youre happy with yr life. be strong bby. now i can see that u can stand still even without me anymore. thank u for coming into my life, and make it wonderful. love u till end of days xo
writed by;
theresa xo
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